Blog Newbie

Why hello there. Welcome to my new blog. Yes, you read that right. I’m starting (for the second time) a blog. I started one of these a while ago and it lasted about two blogs…so here’s to hoping this one lasts longer. *fingers crossed*

I spend much of my day thinking. As soon as I wake up…ok that’s a little exaggerated…20(ish) minutes after I wake up, my mind starts racing. Actually…mornings aren’t my thing, so maybe this analogy isn’t exactly accurate.

Let’s restart:

At some point each day, usually mid-morning, my brain is in full swing. I’m learning how often my thoughts create mental outcomes which, 99% of the time, never become reality. I worry about the craziest things. I overthink and stress over conversations I’ve had throughout the day. I get knots in my stomach when I know I might have made someone mad. My thoughts have so much power in my life. Some would call this anxiety. Yikes.

Bottom line, I’m always thinking. I’ve never been one to truly express what I’m feeling deep deep DEEP down. I never really share the ugly, vulnerable, real stuff that is going on. I share what’s bothering me, but only the surface level things. This results in having a hard time being real in my relationship with the Lord and with others. I would rather push all of that down so I don’t have to deal with the true emotion of my problems and struggles. It’s been a challenge in my marriage and friendships. I’m working on it, people. Ok? At least I realize it…

Within the last 6 months, I have learned/am still learning the importance of opening up, being real, and having what I call “ugly talks” with the people I love and trust the most, which is easier said than done.

The purpose of this blog is to open up about life. I’m guilty of falling into the the deep dark all-consuming pit called “social media”. Social media creates a false picture of our life because others only see the happy moments (aka only the moments we want others to see). It can create lies in our head about other people and their “perfect” lives.

Friends, this is a dangerous trap. Life is good, but life is hard. Marriage is incredible, but marriage isn’t always easy. Things are not as they appear on social media…I could keep going, but those all sound like future blog posts.

ANYWAYS…

My goal is to write at least one blog each week. It may not last long, but here is what I do know:

If I don’t allow others to see both the good and the bad in my journey, how can God receive the glory?

So…I hope you’ll follow the raw, real, awkward, fun, new blog life of Everyday Ellie.